This entry will be broken into two distinct parts - an introduction and the emphasized content. I am telling you this in case, like me, you prefer straightforward directions rather than a bumbled attempt at progression. Actually, I tend to write in a bumbled manner; but that’s far from the point I’m aiming for.
Here is the introduction. I have a very selective consciousness. To some, this makes me seem ignorant or rude in some arrogant and lofty manner. To others, I can only assume I look like a fool, sound like a fool too. But, honestly, there’s nothing I can do about it: I have a distinctly selective consciousness.
The best example I can give happened only a few weeks ago - the proximity of the event makes it the “best” example because I remember it very well. I walked in Barnes & Noble to wait out a few minutes before a movie I would soon attend began. My mind was very intent on where I wanted to go in the store, and I was enacting, in my head, what exactly it would be like once I arrived at this particular section of books. I was visualizing what new additions might be added to the rows and which novels would have their covers facing the shoppers.
There was a tiny chatter beside me as I walked past the cafe, which turned into a quick shout of “Ryan!” as I entirely passed the tables. I turned abruptly to see Beth and Molly sitting their reading or whatnot. My plans of book browsing were forgotten in an instant and I sat down with them to talk. Beth was organizing a few items in iCal and Molly was feigning an attempt at reading some book for her English course. Beth was also conversating with another person there, and the conversation seemed to be about her enormous schedule that I glimpsed as shown in iCal. I didn’t want to interupt their conversation, so Molly and I talked for a fair amount of time.
Beth had a water by her and Molly had a water as well. Molly also had a finished Java Chip Frappucino by her book that she laid down once I sat to talk. We chatted and then I got up to go check out those books. There are always a few items I find interesting at B&N but the majority of them are just titles without stories to me, and I glance over them without care. After some minutes, I came back and sat down with Molly who had fully surrendered to being distracted from her reading.
We talked for about two minutes and I looked down at our table and almost leapt backwards in shock. This wasn’t necessarily a shock of fear, but rather the type of shock you experience when someone quietly walks in behind you and begins to talk - you are somewhat frightened and bewildered, but your composure returns quickly.
Why was I shocked? I looked at the table and saw an empty Caramel Frappucino container sitting there directly in front of me, as if I had consumed it. On the surface this sounds insignificant, but I had no recollection of that item being there when I sat down that second time. Naturally, I thought it had swiftly materialized from nowhere, so I was startled.
Of all of the details that I noticed just in those few minutes of chatting, the presence of a specific coffee-dessert cup went completely unnoticed. Why? Because I didn’t remember that object being on the table at my initial visit and I wasn’t expecting it when I returned.
I have a selective consciousness. That was my introduction.
Here is the content. Now that you slightly understand a realm of my thought processes, I want to list a few items I noticed today that were in my room. These are items that I never notice regularly, or for that matter at all; I would have continued overlooking them were it not for a few minutes of looking about to view my room. Each of these items are fully in view and require nothing to be moved to see them; however, I just am forever ignoring them without reason.
A picture of an indifferent rubber duck.
A remote control to a t.v. that I don’t use, that doesn’t work, and that I have no idea where the television is actually located.
Two homemade speakers, these are used, stacked, as a stand for my main JBL speakers.
A Ford Mustang hubcap, from the 70s I believe.
A 1995 UVA soccer poster autographed by every member of that year’s team; most of them went on to play in the MLS and several of them were rookies of the year respectively.
A DVD of First Knight; why do I have this?
A playing card taped to my desk, it is a king of hearts and has a picture of a toy troll dressed as an Elvis.
I hope you are not as unaware as I usually am. Don’t worry, my driving habits are considerably more cautious and mindful.
Music: Third Eye Blind, "Crystal Baller"