exhaustion
My subject comes from how I feel right now. I realized a couple days ago that I’m not getting any strenuous physical activity that involves running or moving around very quickly. So I’ve decided to get back into some kind of sport of that type. And I’ve immediately chosen basketball because we have a court outside and it’s something I like to play, even if it is by myself. Oh well, it’ll be good.
Monday night I went bowling again, but this time our group was joined by Kenny, Rossman, and Jon. Very fun. Our lanes kept breaking down, perse, and wouldn’t drop the bar thing after the bowling ball hit the pins, so we realized we were able to get more than one shot off per throw, or whatever. So Karl managed to score a 5 shot spare. By then the back of the collision area thing was completely full of bowling balls and pins that it was starting to overflow into the actual lane part itself. But yeah. And once again the low/high people had to eat a pickled egg. To his most unfortunate luck, Kenny went from 40 to 125 in 3 “frames” due to his 4 strikes in a row, so that put him on top. Anyways, it was a good evening, especially the fighting in the parking lot.
Aahh school is coming to a close. This senior year has gone by way too fast; regrets and shame and missed opportunities. Why does hindsight have to be so immensely clear? And as this inevitable time of the year comes around, birthday, I go through yet another round of disappreciation (word?) for everything. But that’s because I’m not a gifts person, nor a big have-a-party-for-myself person. I prefer to let the day pass quietly with maybe some recognition from friends, but that’s still optional. I’m constantly asking God how I can serve Him if I don’t like being around people; how to love others if I prefer not to take the risk. This personality of mine seems to not be very compatible with that of God’s plan, but I do believe that it’s not God who is skewed from the picture but myself and there’s something I’m missing to this whole living thing. Arg. So confusing, but dreadfully exciting life is!
Oh yeah, I went shopping yesterday, GAP and Circuit City, and saw the coolest thing. At the local Chevrolet dealership they put up this huge Uncle Sam for Memorial Day (btw, Happy Memorial Day and thanks to the Vets!) that was being blown around in the wind. So it’s this huge Uncle Sam with his arms like in an upward V shape and he’s leaning back due to the wind. It soooo looked like Neo in the first Matrix. But yeah, I thought it was interesting.