meaning
The last few days have been interesting. I’m really starting to question myself about college and life beyond even that. After a most intriguing conversation with a friend, I realize too that even though I have a college to go to I’ve yet to honestly find a career I think I can enjoy for a long time, not to mention location and salary. It seems that all we, as humans, seek in life is pleasure and I guess that’s the only thing life is for. My Christian faith would tell me that we are created to worship God, because in His Holy Goodness He sent His Son, part of Himself, to be our sacrifice for our natural deviance from His Holy Plan. I believe that to be true, but have yet to fully contemplate the idea that we were created to worship God. And I’ve struggled immensely for the last few days about how that incorporates into my life, because, obviously, I can’t live in a church constantly praying or praising all day. Understandably, I doubt God expects us to be church rats either. I’m just having some difficult times gleaning from my life to discover a purpose and meaning to it all. There’s so much that could happen in my life, but this human cycle seems so discouraging and apathetically focused that I continue to semi-believe that everything is meaningless. Of course there is some meaning, but I’m still searching. I just hope there’s more to life than work, cars, and real estate.
On a side note, I’ve noticed a trend in the modern sitcoms. They all suck. The true tv shows of the past (including, but not limited to, Seinfeld, Frasier, The Andy Griffith Show, Jeopardy, and even the recent Everybody Loves Raymond) were the staples for evening entertainment. But now our WEGA’s and DIGITall’s are hounded every night with crap like My Big Fat Greek Life, Eight Rules to Dating my Teenage Daughter, and Mr. Personality. I gag every time I hear a new reality show is born, I mourn when hearing yet another laugh track from law-grade comedies. What happened to tv? On that same ground, what happened to Disney? I remember the days of The Lion King and, the all-time classic, Alladin. Now the likes of Lilo and Stitch light up my local theater’s walls giving me yet another reason to get up from those uncomfortable seats. Media, why have you forsaken me?
We finished A Beautiful Mind today in AP Calc. It started off well, but ended on such a vague and general note that I was minorly disgusted. I remember the first day of watching and being highly intrigued but as it drew to a close I was kind of hoping each character would fall into some tragic doom of some sort. Despite my wish not being granted, the movie did end and I went away glad I didn’t buy it earlier on a sale. 5.0 out of 10.