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Evening: I have this bad feeling that I already updated recently, and just my luck, I updated this morning. I’m such a retard. But I do want to totally vent/get-something-off-my-chest or whatever.
I really hate being too specific with stuff in my blogs, so please excuse my generalities. Lately, I just don’t know what’s going on. Sometimes I think the whole home situation is ok and other times it’s just not cool. Sometimes I think things are in moderate order within the organizations and groups I’m a part of and other times I don’t know what to make of the situation. Sometimes I think life is good, that each breath is a gift and something to cherish for all eternity, other times I hate everything, desperately trying to find something to loathe about. Right now I’m confused. I don’t know what to think. I don’t even know if I should think anymore. Every time I take a step into the unknown it turns out to be something awful that I wished I would have stayed away from. But I hate the present. I don’t want to be where I’m at now. I want to think for myself, but at the same time there are so many things I’m just supposed to accept. I’m not like anyone I know, and the people I believe I am, in fact, most like are the ones that other people would consider my opposites. I have a future and a hope. It’s just as if there’s some enormous chasm in between my present and my future. So what am I supposed to do here? Jump for all I’m worth? Wait as if it will work itself out? Right now I’m not sure. I don’t want to make any moves that will seriously cause some horrible outcomes, but at the same I can’t just sit here and act like things are peachy. I want to run through the halls of my high school, I want to scream at the top of my lungs. But, I am seriously glad that I have the friends that I have; they by far have been such an inspiration and source of, well….friendship in my life. Oh blah, everything’s dumb…ah scratch that, a lot of everything is dumb. Well, it’s official, I’ve totally made a loser of myself for updating twice in one day.
And not to mention the factor that I’ve definitely nerd-ified myself for not wishing Jeremiah a HUGE Happy Birthday (belated). And also a big shout out to Rianna who was on Hannity’s show!!! Now everything is wicked bloody cool again.
It’s amazing how shallow I am. I can start this big ranting and raving update and by the end of it not care one bit about it. Maybe I have the hope part down pretty good already.
Morning: Well this week has been very busy thus far. Each day has provided for something new to completely dive in; not meaning that whatever it was happened to be a positive thing, just something in between a celestial pool and a food processor.
Sunday was ok. Still lots of questions regarding Fine Arts. Basically I just felt no leading to do anything and I definitely did not want to get involved just so I could that I did it.
Monday was a day off from school before exams this week. I met up with Adam, Dan, and Jessica for lunch at Macados. Then we cruised the mall as Adam explained about his recent discoveries at American Eagle (which I may check out sometime). Then we headed back over to Candler’s Station and saw Die Another Day. Bah. It’s a usual and common thing for sequels to totally suck. The bad thing is that it’s been this way for 30+ years with the Bond films. I’m not saying that each movie has progressively declined down the suck trail because, yes, each movie has it’s ok highlight scene (like the car chase in Die Another Day), but they just aren’t good anymore. 2.4 out of 10.
Tuesday was a full day at school. Not bad, only a few classes did more than review for exams. Then I had a basketball game that night. We won 60-50. I was just having such a bad game day; couldn’t control with dribbling (not like that’s unusual though) and just could not seem to accurately help the guards cut in. Oh well, there’s always tomorrow.
Which came the next day. A day of exams at school first, but I only had a long band class that afternoon where we practiced for 3 hours for festival. Then the basketball game came. This was against one of the Boonsboro teams, maybe it’s the 03 but the B teams are always the hardest (especially before they stopped letting them stack the teams). This was definitely my day. Of course I didn’t score many points but I was able to get the whole paint area sealed off from rebounds (which I got quite a few of actually). So my game was great and we won too, 59-53. But, sadly enough, I got totally smacked in the forehead with an elbow. It was an accident because the guy was going for a rebound. But I was knocked backwards and did the little drunken stagger-step for a few feet before I could realize what happened. Now I have a bruise above my eye, but that’s ok; winning always comes at a cost.
Oh yeah and after finally receiving some direction to follow regarding Fine Arts, I will now be participating in Male Vocal Solo (with serious Matt E-bass backup) and Percussion Solo. Sounds like fun? Oh it will be.